You Know What? You're Right!

I'm pretty loud, opinionated, often hyper, and tend to take charge in situations. Often, I find that this can rub others the wrong way, especially people who don't know how to handle a woman who isn't afraid to take leadership, and have her voice heard.

Recently, when working through some insecurities I have, to find freedom from them, a lie that I had been believing surfaced.  One thing that's been really cool about  my journey into freedom is that the more freedom I find, the louder, and more confident I get.  I've found that even though it rears it's head every once in a while, I'm rarely bogged down with worrying what other people think of me.

However, in this walk towards freedom, I've found that when people don't know how to take you, or how to be okay with this confidence, they can say hurtful things, unintentionally, and sometimes even intentionally.

I often hear things like, "Wow Amanda, the guy you end up marrying is going to have to be pretty strong!" or "Man, the guy you end up with is really going to have to be something."

This lead me to believe that the personality that I have, that God crafted this way intentionally, was going to keep me from finding the guy God has planned for me.

Now, I'm blessed with many strong women in my life, my mom, grandma, aunts, friends, and women at my church.  One of those strong women happens to be my mentor.  When I brought up that I was feeling this, and that God had highlighted this as a lie I was believing, Krissy gave me the kick that I needed.  I was interpreting people saying I would need a "strong man" or "special guy" as an insult (which in some cases was the intention on the other side of the comment) to "handle" me.

In reality, those comments are true, I DO need a strong man! You want to know why? Not because I'm "a lot to handle," but because I've worked really hard at chasing after freedom, and dealing with really painful and uncomfortable baggage.  And it's a lot hard work!  If I'm working this hard, I better have a man who will work as hard at chasing after God and freedom, is becoming more like Christ everyday, will spur me to continue chasing freedom, and will lead me & love me like Christ does! And I won't settle for anything less!

So, you're right, I do need a strong man, because I deserve it!

Oh, and shout out to my other strong and confident women out there! Go out and take the world by storm!