The Looming Unknown

Right now, from where I'm sitting at my kitchen table at home, hanging out with my dad and getting ready to head down to the barn to help with chores, I just had a huge revelation.  I just finished my fourth year of university, only have one more year left until I will be thrust into the real world, leave for Kenya  in about 2 days, 20 hours, and 33 minutes, and still don't know what I'm going to be doing this summer to make money to pay for that last year of university.  I don't know what my Kenya trip is going to look like, I don't know what I'm going to be doing this summer, or after this next school year for that matter.  That's a lot of unknowns that I'm facing, and the thought of that terrifies me, but it seriously excites me at the same time!

This summer is unlike any other summer I've ever had.  For starters, I'm going on the trip of a lifetime. I know it is going to be a significant step into my destiny, and even though I don't know what the trip is going to look like, exactly, I'm fine with that.  Ultimately, I don't care what we do, because I've already made the decision that whatever comes my way, I'm going to make the best of it, and look for the good in every situation. Also, I've never been faced with not knowing what I'm going to be doing for the summer (job wise).  It's always been something that has just fallen in my lap and usually a guaranteed position. So, as a person who likes to have a plan, this coming summer is seriously challenging me to trust that God's got my back, and somehow, I'm going to be able to afford to finish university. And while I haven't found a job yet, I trust that God's got a plan for this summer, and I just haven't stumbled upon it.  While I have been turned down for several positions already, I still firmly believe that something is waiting for me.  If God has taught me anything in my four years in university, it's that when we trust him with our finances, grades, living situations, etc. He always provides the best options.

It's usually at this point in a person's university career that people begin to ask, "so what comes next?" And my answer these days has become something a lot like: "Well, I could do this, or this, or this....So yeah, I have no idea."  And this not only frustrates me, but it's also quite scary.  Ultimately, I have no idea what the future holds, but I do know that it's full of good things, hard times, challenges, and victories. So friends, for the time being I have no idea what the future holds, and when I do, I'll definitely let you know.  But for now, I think I'm just going to sit back and enjoy not knowing, pressing into God and falling more in love with Him. So, while I don't know what comes next, I'm going to cling to His promises that say, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." (Matt. 6:34) and "For I know the plans I have for you,"declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future" (Jer. 29:11). I'd definitely appreciate prayers for my trip, and prayers for wisdom about what is next to come.